I dont have anyone with whom i can talk to or share

I just wanted to let you know I read your story... I wish you all the best. It is my experience that it can be a great feeling when you can connect to something higher then yourself (like in your case Allah). All your problems can fall away.

I have noticed. in recent years that people talk about the superficial stuff but don't have personal confidence to open up and be real. I appreciate what you are experiencing. I run a medical clinic and take care of people all day but am alone at the end of the day . It may be a cultural thing i am United states but have been her over a decade, it's just harder to find people willing to share. I meditate and pray for clarity practice celebrationg this beautiful moment taking care of myself

What meditation you do? Maybe you find a place where you can meditate together with people? This I find really great, there I find like minded people.