Everyday I am terrified to go outside

Everyday I am terrified to go outside and do what I need to do. I have to force myself. I feel sick and I cannot eat because then I have to throw up.

I am scared that people think it is strange, I find it also strange myself, that a grown up woman is so scared, although it doesn't make any sense, but I also lay awake at night, thinking about that I have to face everything again the next day.

It has been like this my whole life and I do not see a way out. Did already some therapies and took pills, but it didn't help. Now I started again with another kind of therapy, I hope it works this time.

Are there people who recognize this?